My story...

I trained as a dance artist from the age of three years old, mainly in ballet, modern, and contemporary. When I was 14, I made the choice to study dance as a career, attending professional summer dance programs across so-called Canada. At 16, I started training in a half day program where I attended public school for half the day and dance for the other half. From 18 to 20, I trained six days per week, minimum six hours per day.

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‌I was disciplined, meticulous, driven, and incredibly focused. However, I had no skills outside of the dance world. I suffered from debilitating depression and anxiety, with no tools for understanding mental or spiritual health. When I was 19, I was admitted to the psychiatric unit of the hospital and mandated to see a psychiatric nurse due to my wish to no longer be alive. Like I had several times before, I attended the sessions I needed to, and went back to pursuing recognition, validation and success through dance.
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From 20−24, I struggled with alcohol and drug use, instable income and housing, and lack of authentic and grounded community support. During this time I danced, performing, teaching, choreographing. At 24, I entered an abstinence based clinical program for people struggling with alcohol and drug use. I attended as an outpatient for five weeks, then checked into a residential recovery home based in women’s empowerment and 12 step models of recovery. I lived there for 12 months. I went on disability. I accessed every program I possibly could to support my healing, and I found a distinctly different way of living. I would say I had a spiritual awakening, a psychic change, a complete shift in my outlook on life.
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‌During this time, I learned how to use spiritual practice to support my capability to serve others. It took me about six years to get off of disability, which was a permanent designation however I found I didn’t need it after that time. I have spent many years since finding recovery peer supporting people seeking recovery themselves. My dance practice transformed greatly to encompass a more multidisciplinary approach.
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‌At 32 I became a mother and I experienced post-partum depression and anxiety. I went on medication, but I also had to change a lot of my ideas and beliefs around self-sufficiency, I had to look at where my sense of identity was coming from, and ideas around productivity in a misogynist world. At 34, the Covid Pandemic and the murder of George Floyd along with the Black Lives Matter uprisings created another major turning point for me. I started to see how I fit into racial capitalism as a mixed race 2nd generation Asian person. Many people “awakened” during that time and then went back to their lives as per usual. My life has been altered it feels forever.
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My dance and art practice has now been completely transformed, and I am very specific about the work that I do in that realm. I organize actively with people who are dedicated to abolition and eradication of antiBlackness, the root of all oppression. I am beginning to grow my services, blending together my knowledge of the body, my growing knowledge of astrology and tarot, my spiritual practice of many years, my belief in reclaiming ancestry as part of abolition, and my commitment to anti-oppression.
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‌It isn’t enough for me to state my values, I must embody them. I believe my purpose in this world is to serve others and to help bring about collective liberation for all people. With the tools I have been privileged to receive, I use to cut away what is not useful and carve something new and sustainable.
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‌My community is everything to me. While I am very much part of a nuclear family unit, I believe that is still something that capitalism created to uphold and protect white supremacist imperialist ableist goals. We have to actively work beyond the nuclear family to create new communities of care.
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‌I am honoured and excited to meet with anyone who comes across my art, my services, and anything I am putting into the world.